cigarettes and drugs

2004-10-12T01:58:00.000-07:00

Change of blog.

www.deadbeatdawdler.blogspot.com

Fack.

2004-10-11T16:51:00.000-07:00

Hello.
Just got back from Taka. Went there with my mom to get my new specs. Nice ! It's red. Haha. My mum's being such a bitch, i swear. She is not going to attend my confirmation. When she told me that, tears just rolled down my eyes and i couldn't control it. She's prolly not coming cos she has to follow Gerard to Australia first. Like hello, i also have to go there so can't you go at the same time ?! Biatch. It's CONFIRMATION not some party. HOI. Think about it biatch.

Anyway, went to school today for math and chinese paper two. I have this strong feeling im gonna fail my math. But when i counted, i got 64 !? High hopes only. UGH ! Chinese is as usual - FAIL ! Hahah.

FUCK OFF BITCH. TRENDS REALLY DO SUCK. FIND A FACKING IDENTITY AND STOP FOLLOWING WHAT PEOPLE DO LA CHEEBYE.

2004-10-10T16:08:00.000-07:00

My feelings for you have faded.

I just finished chinese tuition. My gosh, it was like two hours ?! And my teacher had to keep giving me sweets cos i kept on falling asleep and i think i finished her whole box ?! Ha ha ! I finally got my web done but it's only for pictures. Haha. Not done with the uploading of all the pictures though. Well, im bored.

Ciao.

Spinning- I was made for loving you ; Queen.

2004-10-09T13:04:00.000-07:00

Omfg.
I was just talking to Claire online.
She asked if it would be nice if her confirmation name was Claire Angel Chua.
I told her it'll be nice if it's Claire Devil Chua.
Im so sorry precious GF !
Im going back for cat class today. Finally !
Bye.

Last train home ; Lost prophets.

OH,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAM-ASS !
HAVE A FUN DAY DOOD !
<3

2004-10-08T17:44:00.000-07:00

NATALIE CHAN.
AS SOON AS YOU SEE THIS, TAG MY BOARD.
HAHAH. :*)

hate.

2004-10-08T13:27:00.000-07:00

I don't know why i hate her so much. I really do - Nicole Tan. You screw everyone's life up. Fack la, stop trying to suck up to people to get back revenge. You slut. It's rude to call someone a slut but that's the BEST word that describes you. It's embarrasing but i don't think you give a faking shit cos you think you're 'oh-so-facking' cool.
Fack off biatch !

Went to church on Wednesday to get Fr Mike to sign some papers for the school in Australia. It's in Sydney, Potts point. I can't believe i have to go there. I always wanted to leave Singapore cos it's such a fast-paced country but now when i have to leave, i can't bear to. I don't want to l;eave my family and friends. How can a day pass happily for me !? Come to think of it, i never really treasured moments i had with some friends and now that i want to see tham, i can't. I don't like this and those people who hurt me so hell much, i still wanna meet them somewhere, somehow. All our past memories can never be erased. The picture in my head. Nostalgia. I have to go there for 2 years, come back for holiday and go to the university there. Cos once you study in Aussie's high school, you have to go to the university there. :*( I guess my mum decided to put me there for my own good cos she said i can;t adapt to the education here. Well, that's enough for a post !?
Ciao.

Jukebox : Unholy confessions ; Avenged sevenfolds.

HAHA.

2004-10-07T18:39:00.000-07:00

Tell me which faking BAND has two drummers and no guitarists ?! That's your band. Name - 'morbidpunks'. Ain't fit to be punks. Hehheh. Isn't that true. The only band i heard with two drummers. How cool is that ! I'll 'support' you in whatever gigs you have cos you'll never have one. Useless buggers who act so faking cool. I don't care if you see it. Cos i really can't stand you. Find some originality girl. You need to find an identity too. :)
Thats for you - Glenna.

2004-10-07T16:46:00.000-07:00

I simply can't facking be bothered to blog sometimes. Like now. So you come back again. Thanks !

ZENN : YOU FUCKING GATILE MONGYET. HAHA. TAKE GOOD CARE MY DEAR GATILE MONGYET ! :]

2004-10-06T13:35:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNETH !
I told you you're not forgotten. Haha. Hope you have fun on this very day. Take care. Love !

2004-10-04T22:43:00.000-07:00

CAN SOMEONE HELP ME CHANGE THE BORDER COLOR TO BLACK AND THE LINKS TO BLACK ?!
FUCK BLOGGER AGAIN. :)

:(

2004-10-04T17:56:00.000-07:00

I miss him
Decided to blog cos im feeling melancholic. :( The feeling sucks.
Just read this book about God. I decided that i should spend some time with God. It's really touching. Whoa, its like something not done in a LONG time. I want to go back to church to do my confession and talk to God. I miss him. Haha. :)
Anyhoos,
Couldn't sleep properly last night. Don't know why but i'll wake up every hour, look for stars and go back to sleep. If only the stars were black and the sky was white. How cool is that ? Haha. My imagination. :)
How's my blogskin ? Nice ey. Playboy bunnies are dam cute. Hahaa. :)
This week i gotta sit for my Chinese paper one and Physics. The following week, Maths and Chinese paper two which is both on one day. Than im no longer going back to school. :(
Hell, im done here. Got photos but i haven't put them up so you gotta wait facking long till i have the time. Haha.
Ciao.

Jukebox : Red light pledge ; Silverstein.

To him :
Sorry for everything that happened. I guessed it was just misunderstandings. I'll call you when have the chance to and it might not be too soon. Take care. Much love. X
Xoxo
-Nat.

2004-10-02T18:06:00.000-07:00

Hello.
Im so bored.
My mum is attending Gerard's speech and graduation ceremony. Gosh. What good has that boy done in school ? Haha. Okay, im so bad.
Nat is helping me change my skin. So sweet. Thanks Nat. I lub joo ! Haha. My god, im becoming so cheena.
Oh, went back to school on Thursday for English papers. Was okay. At least i can say it was better than the mid-years. Haha. I flung my bloody mid-years by one mark dude. Can you believe i flung ENGLISH ? But i still did badly for the rest. Haha.
Well, that is why im mugging hard for my finals. Haah.
Sean is a pest. He keeps pinching me. That little bastard. :] He had the worst hair cut ever yesterday dude. It's like BOTAK ?! Hehheh. But he's still cute. :)
Ugh. Im dam tired. I want to sleep but he doesnt wanna let me too.
I got nothing much else to say so BYE !
Xoxo.

Something's gotta change again
I'm losing, my inspirations gone, oh no oh no
Seeing through some different eyes
I can't find, my medications failed, again again
I can feel a changeI can feel, can you feel it
See it on the street watching heat from the pavement
Cause I'm here, ready to take it all here
Everything's feeling unclear
I wish it was raining
Cause I hate every beautiful day
Faces in the crowdFake smiles for miles
My imitations wrong of them again
Trapped inside this cheap hotel
Bored as hell turing the channels 'round
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
See it on the street watching heat from the pavement
Cause I'm here, ready to take it all here
Everything's feeling unclearI wish it was raining
Cause I hate every beautiful day
I can feel a changeI can feel, can you feel it
See it on the street watching heat from the pavement
I can feel a change
I can feel, can you feel it
I'm not the same, not the same lost my feeling
All I know I'll never know
All I know I'll never know
Cause I'm here, ready to take it all here
Everything's feeling unclear
I wish it was raining
Cause I hate every beautiful day
Every beautiful day
Every beautiful day
Every beautiful day

Hate every beautiful day ; Sugarcult

fucking hell.

2004-10-01T18:24:00.000-07:00

I AM WRONG.

I guessed i was wrong to put that post up huh ?
You're right and im wrong. Whadafak ?!
Haiyah, im sorry if things didn't work out right for you. But i guess it did for me.
I'll find the time to talk things out with you okay ?
But i think we're just not meant to be. :(
Xoxo.

facked up.

2004-10-01T12:59:00.000-07:00

I guessed i was wrong to trust you AGAIN.
You said things like these would not happen again. But guess what ? It just did. I found out too many things and i didn't believe my ears. And you didn't even tell me. I regret now and i really DO. So you don't tell me again that you love me cos i guess it's all bullshit. I guess we're just not meant to be so don't ask for another chance cos you've already wasted your second chance.
Thanks for hurting me. :(

Okay anyhoos,
Ugh. Im not in the mood to blog now after i found out so much shit. Well, those people who told me, thanks alot. Now, i really regret what i facking did in the past.

Oh yeah, Vanessa's surprise party on Tuesday was just awesome ! Though Claire and I left early, we still had our fun. Did i tell you ? GF and I are the nuts in 61 Mimosa Park. Haha. Gosh. Actually, i started it. It all started when i decided to reply the crow which does that dam high-pitched sound, so GF was like, "Ey, do dam loud." Than i did. GF was so amazed that she wanted me to teach her. Spastic child. While i was teaching her, she was laughing like a mad child. So funny ! While i was doing and GF attempting to do it, Val, the chef hard at work was busy preparing the food ! Haha. So sorry Val, we didn't help much. Suddenly we saw this bunch of people walking downstairs and realised that the party was gonna be soon. GF and I with our jokes, started making bird calls and shouting to them and when they looked up, we would hide behind the curtains ! Haha. It was facking hilarious. They came up and Vanessa was dam shocked. She thought who the hell was banging so loudly on the door ! Haha. Actually, it was the people. They finally arrived after we waited so long. Than noises started again. This time, Abby, Annabel, GF and I. We stared doing the bird calls and than i stared immitating Mr Bean by doing the "Wakey, wakey, breakfast ready" thing and Abby decided that she did the "cockadoodledo" thing and we joined it so she'll be doing the "cockadoodledo" thing and i'll do my bird calls. It was facking loud i swear. We'd prolly wake people up from their 'peaceful' evening sleep cos it happened around seven plus. Hoha. But we didn't really care cos we were having our fun. That's about it la. Food was great, thanks to the great chef.
Hehheh.
Xoxo.

~~Shoutouts.~~

Val and Claire : Thanks for everything that night at the party. It was sure pure FUN babes. You two rock my panties till they have holes ! :) ILUBJOO.

Abby and Annabel : We should do this more often yeah ?! Haha. See you two in church soon. LOVE !

THURSDAY'S POST.
Went for tuition and i met Nattykins bestfriend there ! HAAH. We were having facking hella time there man. She was smiling non-stop like some freak. So cute. That explains why. Haha. Okay, anyhoos, thanks Nat for being there or else i would sure be SO bored. You take care, see you soon. I LUB JOO ! :]

:(

2004-09-29T13:37:00.000-07:00

OMFG !
This thing just happened again. Someone help me un-strike it please pretty please ?!
Fuck blogger la. :(

laughter is instinctive

2004-09-29T13:33:00.000-07:00

Did i tell you, laughter is INSTINCTIVE !
Haha.

Im bored. My mum just left to pick Sean up. So im secretly using the computer.
Hehheh. Going for tuition today. Okay, changed the template but there's something wrong with my template. Can't see the links. Ugh. Someone please help me ? I kinda forgot all my html skills. Not that it was very good but i used to know how to do all these shit. Now, i totally don't cos i wasn't into my blog last time. Haha.

Oh and did i tell you, TRENDS SUCK ! So fuck off bitch~~. I hate you. Go get some of your bloody own fashion sense. Even if it's some Ah Ma type, it's still cool :)~~

So close your eyes
and sleep to dream.
Im by your side
no words to speak.
We'll set our course
and make it through.
No matter how far i go
my heart remains with you.
*And if all else falls
you can look up to the sky
Because it's the same one that
shines above you and i.
And if all else falls,
you can close your eyes.
and i'll be right beside you.
I'll be the one by your side.

- If all else falls ; Matchbook Romance.

2004-09-29T03:05:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHA. I DID IT AGAIN. SO YOU BETTER THANK ME AGAIN. =D SO PROUD OF MYSELF.

-ZOE THE GREAT.

(:

2004-09-28T19:15:00.000-07:00

FINALLY !
MY NEW TEMPLATE.
HAHA.
THANKS ZIWEI THE BIATCH.
LOVE !

2004-09-28T03:43:00.000-07:00

Im at NUT'S house ! With the biatch Ziwei.
Suppose to be at tuition but i came over to her place cos my tuition teacher ain't back yet.
It's so boring.
Okay, Nat, i don't like you. Are you happy ?!
Oh did i tell you, i like ribena pastilles ? It's dam nice and im childish cos i like that sweet. Wtfh la.
Ciao.

He's a victim of his own time
In his vintage suit and tie
He's a casualty dressed to the teeth in the latest genocide
Now the new seasons come and go
At the dog and pony show
Gonna sit and beg and fetch the names and follow your dress codes
What's in a name hey

-Fashion Victim ; Green Day.

OMFG !

2004-09-27T13:37:00.000-07:00

OMFG !
I JUST DID THE CODE TO UNDERLINE THE WORD 'SHOUTOUT' AND FAKING BLOGGER UNDERLINED EVERYTHING IN MY BLOG.
SHITE.

WHOEVER KNOWS MY PASSWORD CAN YOU HELP ME DO SOMETHING TO IT ?!
THANKS HELLA.

2004-09-27T13:32:00.000-07:00

Hello.
Woke up super late today. Therefore, i wasnt in time to post the letters cos the breadman left. So i guess i'll have to walk to the post box. I guess i woke up late due to studying late into the night and early morning. Studied in the night cos when i came back from church in the morning, i was lying on the sofa in the basement and i fell asleep for like four hours ?! Haha. And that time was suppose to be my studying time. Church was okay. Didn't see many people except for Gabriel, Ben and Dhini. Haha. Dhini was so CUTE with her BIG smile when she saw me. Haha. So funny. Should have captured that picture. Anyway, i got TWO tuitions later, one after another. Exams are coming. English is on Thursday. That means im left with threee days to revise ? Haha. And im only taking four subjects i guess ?! Eng, Physics, Math, Chinese. Cos i don't go to school and i don't know what the teachers are teaching for the other subjects. But that's a good thing. I don't have to study as much as my classmates. Haha. I don't have to sit for ACCOUNTS. I can't seem to pass that subject. I only passed one out of six tests for that subject i think ? Haha. Well, it's because the teacher can't teach for peanuts and many people agree to it. Haha. MISS INDRAN, two words - YOU SUCK ! :). Haha. Been mugging at home the past week. So boring. But it's good la. Oh, did i tell you ? I read the dictionary and the Bible. Haha. You must be thinking im mad but it's FUN !
I just transferred Finch into the iPOD. FINALLY !!
Ciao.

Someday i'll appreciate in value,
get off my ass and call you.
But in the mean time we'll start a
brand new fashion
of waking up with pants on
at four in the afternoon.
-grand theft autumn ; fall out boy

SHOUTOUTS

Tom : Sorry i didn't meet you on Sat night. I didn't fall asleep. My mum found the other house phone downstairs so i couldn't contact you. Love !

Val and Claire : Bestfriend and Girlfriend ! I miss you both la ! Can't wait to see you on Thursday. Love !

Nat : Bestfriend ! I miss you la. See you soon. cou-ORRY-gh

Carrie : Dawn, Jen, Jeannine and I went to look for YOU in your class but you weren't there so we went for assembly.

2004-09-27T06:06:00.000-07:00

NAT YOU BETTER THANK ME COS I UN-UNDERLINED THE THINGS FOR YOU.

-ZOE :D

2004-09-27T06:04:00.000-07:00

NAT YOU BETTER THANK ME COS I UN-UNDERLINED THE THINGS FOR YOU.

-ZOE :D

2004-09-24T17:10:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JILLAY SALTAY.
iloveyou much hell. babe. hope you have a great day. love you darling. :)

i washed the toilet again today. such an accomplishment. haha. i feel like a maid. well maybe i am, since my maid is sucha lazy bugger, who does nothing much and acts deaf. to hell with you bitch !
gerard left for camp today. FINALLY ! i have always been waiting for this day to come. the day he gets outta the house ! bloody annoying shithead. :D
went for tuition just now. time seemed to past real fast during tuition. haha. but was good la. mum came and pick me up. after that, we went to united square to pick my younger bro up. and I SECRETLY WENT TO BUY MY HI-CARD. its new ! and i dont care if i get pranks but im gonna put the no. up so i dont have to message people to tell them. the no. is 81315334. :) people, message me once you read this and dont forget to tell me who you are.
okay, thats all for today.
im off.

spinning: fairies wear boots, black sabbath.

2004-09-23T17:20:00.000-07:00

HELLO !
im back. i mean, i wasnt gone but im back blogging. haha.
early in the morning when i was still sleeping..
my mum came into my room,
'wake up now, all you do is sleep ! go and wash the toilet.'
wtfh. call that MY morning.
i was damn angry so i just jumped out of bed. haha. :)
washed the toilet in 5 mins. kinda fun though.
anyhoos,
ate breakfast with my bro. watched jackass yet again. its hilarious. especially when Bam Megara and his friends are in the trolley going down the slope. haha. coolbeans. :)
mum just came in to talk to me about the school in Aussie. dam hell. she said if i cant make it there, she's either gonna put me in Australian International School or Overseas Family School in S'pore. wtfh la.
wake up your mind la bitch !
kay, enough of my rants.
ciao.

spinning: no trivia ; from autumn toashes.

2004-09-22T17:25:00.000-07:00

I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL !! :)
so happy. saw all my friends.
okay.. went for CME exam. bloody hell, i didnt know it was gonna be so 'EASY'.
rah.
anw, i didnt really care.
i was just over excited that i saw my friends !!
left school, came home.
slept.
and i woke up and left for school again for my chinese oral.
bloody hell.
bel just told me today that we have. shitty la. not prepared.
i'll prolly be muttering words. haha. :D
ciao.

SHOUTOUTS
sassyfoo: thanks for the letter you wrote during the CME exam ! :)
val: IM SO HAPPY I SAW YOU BESTFRIEND ! LOVE ! :)
clairey: you looked so cute when you opened your mouth in a state of shock when you saw me ! haha. iloveyou. LOVE !
JELLYBEAN: ILOVEYOU. i cant ask for someone so special like YOU ! LOVE.
to the rest:
slut, dawn, jeannine, jaz, ally, nat the mad, dhini, lesley, glenna, bel, deb, sam, jane, zoe and whoever i saw, if your name is not here, I STILL LOVE YOU ! see all of you soon !
LOVE MUCHEST, PALS ! :D

2004-09-22T10:45:00.000-07:00

what would you say if i asked you not to go

to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me

would you take my hand and never let me go

promise me you'll never let me go

and the stars aren't out tonight,

but neither are we to look up at them

why does hello feel like goodbye?

these memories can't replace,

these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased

take this broken heart and make it right

i feel like i've lost everything when you're gone

left remembering what it's like to have you here with me

i thought you should know,

you're not making this easy

i never thought i'd be the one to say

please don't, well please don't leave me

Promise - MatchbookRomance

2004-09-21T19:12:00.000-07:00

i met a really irritating piece of shit at tuition jus now. her name is nat and im nat.

2004-09-06T17:53:00.000-07:00

des: i stil love you. don't worry !
tom: just shuddup la. love !
orry: HELL-O !

2004-09-06T08:01:00.000-07:00

hellooo nat. (:
it's zoe the great here. teehee.
i'm here to let everyone here know that nat is having such a great life now.
hurhur. -.- bought a skirt from CK. rich or what ?
but well , of cos she misses everyone.
anyway, nat cut her hair. she looks like a nerd . but much neater compared to last time.HAHAHAHA.
xD
so nat misses everyone. and loves everyone. esp me. xD
BIEBIE.

slut, i cant tag yer board or blog in yer blog. i miss you hell loads. pls msg me to tel me when i can go see you.. sigh.. :(

2004-09-05T07:30:00.000-07:00

HOW CAN I LIVE WITHOUT YOU? -slut

2004-09-05T07:15:00.000-07:00

2004-09-04T15:53:00.000-07:00

salt: salt ! i miss you too. i don't wanna leave too. gosh. it's depressing. sigh. see you soon. im not going back to school btw.
carrie: PROSTITUTE ! yes, i will have a party. and YOU better come. i can't suck up to her please. she knows my ways around. haha. take care, you. love much.

natalie invades ! (x

2004-09-03T20:24:00.000-07:00

jeannine: babe, im not gone yet. im still here. and guess i'll have a party before i leave so i can see you ! love you much. miss you.
carrie: PROSTITUTE ! i miss you so faking much. haven't seen you for ages, haiyah, im gonna make sure i have a party before i leave so i can see yo:u too. love much.
des: jellybean ! don't worry, you're still loved. :)
tom: stop being so thick skin la. haha. :) love you much.
clairey: gf ! i'll die without you by my side babe. yes, i promise you, only the two of us will know that place. when i leave, you better take hella care of yourself. don't worry, i'll come back during term vacation. love you muchest ! :]

2004-09-03T19:37:00.000-07:00

natalie invades again ! (x

the past three weeks staying home is faking boring.
i want to go back to school.
yet i don't want to cos of another reason.
ha. staying at home is sometimes fun and boring.
ugh. I MISS MY FRIENDS !
haha. slut and jellybean, i miss our entertainment when we were bored.
HANGMEN ! haha. tom. stop being so thick skin la.
haha. des, your shout out is long enough.

2004-08-31T21:03:00.000-07:00

natalie invades ! (x

I DONT WANT TO LEAVE SINGAPORE !!
cos all my friends are here,
and if i go to aussie,
i'll have no friends there.

SHOUTOUTS !

BEST FRIEND, why dont you just board the plane
and follow me to Australia !
CLAIREY, yes i promise you, we'll see each other every night at our special place
and yes, we'll take hella pictures together before i leave, so we can see each other
whenever we want!
VAL, if i could crack the computer screen now, i would. go out soon, better ! love you babe !
DES, jellybean ! i love you too ! [:
TOM, if i go, i'll miss you too ! dont forget that. much hate :| haha.
[doesnt mean your the last on the list, means your the least loved.]

food and nutrition lesson !

2004-08-11T10:54:00.000-07:00

hoi.
im having FnN now. bloody hell.
mrs tan is not here so miss tan is teaching us.
she's dam cool. haha

came back from Malaysia yesterday.
i bought a new converse shoe ! ; brown coduroy hi-cut.
ho-haa. and bought alot of other shit from the supermarket.
spent bloody 55o ringgit plus at the supermarket alone.
rushed back and i left for tuition. hah. tuition was all good. played billard at the function room after my tuition. whoa, my tuition teacher is dam cool. and fakkin rich. he daughter threw her E700A phone into the toilet bowl and she bought the new sliding samsung phone the next day. bloody ~~bitch.~~
HA HA !
that's like about my day ?

monday.
was talking to Thomas on the phone, than my mom picked up and heard. he was with his friends and des was one of them with him and this other guy bryan was shouting fuck here, fuck there. and my mom heard everything.. she came down shouted at me and asked me to go up. than she scolded me and asking me why my friends are out so late in the night.
fuck la.
and my father being such an extra came in and asked me why i was talking to guys so late in the night and said that i shouldn't get into any relationships. blah blah blah...
i shouted at him than he took the cane and started whacking me and said that if i don't tell him who i was talking to he'll whack me to death. fuck off la, bloody ~~bastard.~~
he seriously can go break his bloody ribs and lick his dam balls.
call himself a dam father when he wants to whack me to death.

the timings are right from now on.

spinning - oneslowdance;rufio

2004-08-08T21:38:00.000-07:00

in the hotel now.
grand plaza park royal i guess ?
went to watch the fire works just now. at the esplanade.
was quite nice though it was like for five mins. haha.
well, quite enjoyable lah.
this hotel is facking cool.
only people who stay in the orchid lounge can use the free internet service at the orchid lounge. but kids under fifteen are not allowed ? cos there's liqour and alcohol. but my auntie is cool with us drinking. haha. (:
and the connection is facking good. dammit fast. you feel so 'at home'
HAHA ! im lame.
yes, very indeed.

time's passing by and haven't spoken to you.
fuck this shit going on in life. it seriously screw things up. fuck you BITCH
spinning - punkrockprincess;something coporate

2004-08-08T09:40:00.000-07:00

hello nat, are you online like right nowww? cos i am!!! haha. and yer timing of yer blog sucks la. its all wronggg!

your slut is angry!

2004-08-08T09:37:00.000-07:00

helllllooooooooo slut, you said cannot go out but you went out after national day!!! you are sucha shithead, im nv gonna trust you again. haha. (okay, i will if you say sorry to me right now! or you better give me a good explantion!) haha, i sound like an overpossesive slut. haha. but thats bcos i love you! hah, did you know that i heard that you didnt like me last time from someone? then i thot you're sucha bitch, cos you always say hi to me one. haha. but now that i know you, i realised that youre REALLY A BIG BITCH. but a very lovable one. haha. (: okay, thats all. better give me an explaination soon! hah.

/jen

shit.

2004-08-08T04:12:00.000-07:00

bloody fuck.
why is my life always so screwed ?
it's just one person screwing it up. dam, that person should seriously go change her facking attitude. and i mean
CHANGE !
you did it to my friend. now you're doing it to me.
something's seriously wrong with you !
AH ! i've given up hope on you. i always try to help yo but you facking don't accept my help. that's just your lost not mine.
im just gonna let you screw your bloody life up. and next time you'll realise what i've been telling you.
im not gonna let this bother me any longer.
I'VE GIVEN UP. HEARD IT ?
anyhoos, church was good today.
as usual, went for ava. elizabeth came like facking late. forty-five mins after mass started ?
well, i learnt from uncle andrew how to do the camera start up so it's okay la.
claire came late too. suppose to visit Gerard after mass but instead we sat in the canteen and talked to Aunty Cecilia.
she's someone you really can talk to. but you've gotta book her. haha. (:
talked till twelve and we didn't even know the time.
left church, came home. claire wanted to come over but my mom was at home. that BITCH.
she's waiting in the park now for her mom to get home cos she forgot to bring her keys ?
stupid fella. (:
im bloody famished man.
mom didn't cook for me cos she said i ate in church already. wth..
okay la. im off. i've ranted too dam much. the more i rant, the more piss i'll be.
chao !
claire - im sorry i couldn't go out with you today to get your wallet yah ? really sorry ! some other time. i love you truckloads baby.

spinning - road to recovery;rufio.

shopping !

2004-08-07T20:32:00.000-07:00

went shopping today ! bought this top from ralph Lauren. shiok and bought slippers too. met kc and his sister in town at adidas concept store. came home, changed and left for cath class. it sure did suck a whole bit. cos i saw some shit bag. well, who cares. if she wants to carry on lying, i can’t do any dam thing about it, all I can say is you seriously screw people’s life real bad. if thta's what you can only do, you're not gonna succeed in life. not like as if you want to. i don't know what's with you this days. i guess you just need a fucking ATTITUDE CHANGE. i know i've got a fucking attitude problem but at least im trying to do somthing about it. all you do is say you wanna but never. FUCK. you call those people you hang out with your true friends ? they're just using you. it's obvious. find some friends for goodness sake. anyhoos, i guess i shouldn't waste my time on bitches like you.
i just had dinner. fuck, food was shit. it's my grandma's birthday today but we're celebrating it tmr.
piss off bitch.
spinning - hate every beautiful da; sugarcult.
friday. 06082004.
today's national day celebration's in school. i swear it was such a bore. i wasted my time going to school. we got post it's from the school as a gift for national day. hahaa. first time they give something useful. :)
anyhoos, left school went to town with zephyr, natchan and des. waited ouside giodarno for ten minutes ? cos i had to get my top from there. went to mango. AH!! there's this new top. it's fakkin nice. hah. i wanna get it. but than again, i have no money. balls. left town and now im home ! ha. bored.
haven't blogged for dam long ey. well, thanks zoe for changing the template for me yah ? love you biatch !
SHOPPING PARTNER. and thanks slut for leaving two messages. i'll leave you a message here. SLUT YOU'RE THE BESTEST BESTEST SLUT. and i must proclaim to the world my love for you. I LOVE JENA LEE TO BITS AND PIECES.
second time im blogging today. just got back from bran's house. thomas, orry, natchan and des went swimming. i came home. went back to watch cheaper by the dozen with them. funny show. whoa. orry was being sucha bastard. anyway, had great fun there even though it was for a short while. :) orry and nat left the earlest. after that, alrick came. i left. des and thomas left at seven thirty ? well, haiyah. even though i didn't get to go out, at least i got to go over for SOME fun. church tonight. don't know if i can go. didn't study today so maybe my mom won't allow me to go. who cares ?
ciao.
sexyass - SEXY! dont be so sad okay. don't let stupid things like this affect you so badly yah ? anything, im always here for you. though we don't talk much on the phone now, i still want you to know that i care a shitload about you. love ! :D
des - BOSCO ! had so much fun with you today. must come over to bran's house more okay ? love you truckloads babe. (:

2004-08-05T03:24:00.000-07:00

i did this skin for her !!
-zoe. xD

slutty love. :D

2004-08-05T03:18:00.000-07:00

ugh. my whole entry went missingg.. anw, shall jus write a short and swt one...

i love natasha liew to bits! :D

/jen

slut partners forever !

2004-08-05T03:01:00.000-07:00

hey slut. wish you could go out wit us tmr! :( anw, jus wanna let the whole world know that i love you very very very very much. sorry fer the lack of vocab. my mind is jus totally blank. anw, you shouldnt let yer mum bully you! shes depriving you of makin friends. you should like make a big fuss about it and pretend youre very upset, then she'l feel bad. haha. okay, im gonna go bathe nowwww. love plentiful. :D

/jen

2004-07-18T00:15:00.000-07:00

saturday.1030am
heyhey !
i just woke up. slept late yesterday. suppose to go for baybeats but my mom didn't allow. so im gonna sneak out tonight and go. but i'll only be watching it for like one hour ? haha. it's okay. as long as im there to support baybeats ! everybody go down to esplanade to support baybeats. it's a three day thing. 16-18 july. 4.30pm-12am. singapore's bands are good. have you heard them ? The Observatory, Force Vomit and Electrico. anyhoos, im dam tired and i wanna eat something but there's seriously nothing to eat. HAHA ! everyone's out now. and it's like only ten thirty in the morning ? omg, i wanna get this t-shirt from skool. it's fakking nice. it says DAWN OF THE DEAD and it has skeletons on top. quite reasonable price, $79.
ho-yeah, today is Gerard's operation. everyone, please pray for him and pray that the operation goes smoothly.
today's quite a boring day actually. have to go for cathechism in the afternoon. and the whole day im gonna slack at home.. wtf. im such a bummer. maybe i'll study. im off.
ciao.
spinning- she cries by rufio.

sunday.0230pm
im back from the hospital. visited Gerard. his operation was good. i wasn't yesterday actually. it was on friday. well, went for mass in the morning. after that went to town with Claire to buy unerwear from topshop ! that's just a right place to shop for undies ! all the cool ones. she bought this striped one and a girl boxer with the UK flag on it. i bought some polka dotted one and a girl boxer with lady prints on it. it's fakking cool. anyhoos, we rushed down to outram mrt to meet Cheryl Wheryl. and we were late when we told her to rush down. HAHA ! and now we're so broke. i rushed back thinking that my tuition teacher will be early but she's not here and tuition is suppose to be at two. now it's two thirty. wth. i seriously hate waiting for people. took neoprints with Claire. i realised that neoprints are a real waste of money. but it was nice la. how ironic ?
Mellie Wellie's coming back today. and we're going to baybeats together. than we're going to her house to swim. im coming home at five in the morning, bathe and go to school. how's that ? i'll prolly sleep in school during lessons. that's all for today.
claire - thanks for today. it was just great fun cabbing around together and bitching. we should do this more often. love you truckloads baby.

2004-07-16T06:21:00.000-07:00

today's competition was a-okay. came in fourth for my heat but don't know if i even did qualify. which i don't think i did. anyhoos, after comp. me,carrie and elsa left and headed to p.s for a movie. SUPERSIZEME. it was superb. it's like one of the most excition documentary i've watched. you'll should atch it. we took the whole two front seats to our selves; lying down and making a fool of ourselves. well, it was a great time indeed. the est od the people were at school. HAHA. met zoe after that and we went to walk round town. bought a new slipper from new urban male. have like already four pairs. while we were waiting for our train to come to go home, we waited for five trains and we were playing. fun man. left town, went to bishan with zoe ti buy food and went home. reached home at around eight. well, it was a fun day.
spinning- cute without the 'E' by taking back sunday.